I don’t have much to update on since Thanksgiving break.
A lot of people have been asking me if things have been getting better/easier. I don’t think I can necessarily answer that question with, “yes.” I moreso just think the worst is over and I am more accepting/understanding that this is my life. I’ve been able to find positives recently and it makes me proud of my students. I also feel like I’m back to being “Kayla” again.
Sadly, for personal reasons, the other 6th grade teacher quit 2 weeks ago. I understood why she needed to go, but my heart still broke for the kids.
I’m still not a good teacher. I don’t think my kids are really learning. I think I have provided some structure and that’s about all.
Most days I don’t feel strong enough for myself. In all honestly, I’m just trying to be strong for them. Because I do, truly, with my whole heart, love them.
There are a lot of things the LORD is trying to work on with my heart right now. It’s been hard to articulate to others because I’m not sure I even understand it. I hope Winter Break it has some time to sort it out.
To the rest of the educational world, have a great last week/or great first week of break. REST.